Lonely, yeah, that's what I am, at the moment!
Loneliness eats me up from within, hallucinates my being, bogs me down to the extreme core! It takes away rationalization from me, and along with that takes away, my genuine smile(fake smiles are always there on my face 24x7, aah, yes even when I am sleeping), my happiness, my reason of existence..quite everything, almost.
It bothers me all the more, because its winter, again! Winter, my favourite season. The season when flowers are getting ready to nip again, trees having shed its every leaf, getting ready for the extravaganza of greenery, romance enveloping the weather, love and friendship taking the lead in everything, air has its own peculiar charm. Winter has a different touch, it heals souls, and has everything which is good(except for the cracked skins, and bad odor emanating from having not bathed for a week).
It felt so good walking by Siri Fort Road, in this weather, fresh leaves, fresh cool breezy air, fresh girls...errr....i mean beautiful girls puffing one after another, and then returning back to Cafe Coffe Day, for a Masala tea, accompanied by an orange muffin, and enjoying every sip sitting outside CCD, under the warm sun. Wow! If that's not heavenly, what is!
But this time, is different!!! Winter seems to be punishing me. Punishing me, for the decisions I made.
Quitting Engineering after second year, doing injustice to the first year English Major Course, and then......haaah..lots of thing!!! Were these decisions not put into practise, I'd have been a well-paid Engineer, by now, as my friends are. But I don't regret my decisions! They were mine, they didn't pay-off as I thought they would, so what!! Life always can't be good to you, not always! In my case, there has been rarity of good things. They ought not to be!
Well, as springs are not forever, so should be with Summers!!! Always in a hope, always optimistic, always the one to stretch my jaw muscle a bit extra......will wait for the loveliest weather, WINTER, in my life....
P.S.: This blog hasn’t much significance in larger context. It was only intended to vent out personal angst, frustration. Social based issues will feature soon! Till then, keep visiting....
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